What a sad thing to share~

U're not listen to me again. What I was trying to tell you is just for ur awareness. Yet, you seem to doubt my words although you claimed yourself for not doing so. I'm sad. It's even worse when you explained your family to me. This is nothing but to show your doubtful towards me.

Sorry for being such a busy body. I will not do so again.

Hmm.. Will be feeling super duper upset and depress once I recall that you are not celebrating Christmas with me!! *cry out loudly*  =(

This is our first Christmas and it does mean a lot to me, don't you know that? Yet, I know. I cant be that childish although I'm so strongly wanting you to celebrate with me. It's your best friend's birthday. And yet, your gang is so eagerly to celebrate birthday for him on that day!! This makes me so frustrated!

What kinda feeling will I have when I'm celebrating this day alone? hmm.. getting used to those days with you by my side. And now the consequence is that, I feel uneasy without you. Okay, fine. *fed up* All other couples used to have a memorable and enjoyable first Christmas after being together, but I have to stay alone and look all those couples rounding me. >.<

Okay, finish my complaining.

Kinda happy as well, for this celebration as we had decided to buy a couple shirt for our Christmas gift. ^^ You won't know how happy was I as I had dreamed to have our own couple shirt since long time ago, just dare not to tell you. You should know the reason, it's because I had been asked you in one afternoon and you said you want to be low profile. So, couple shirt this kinda high profile action, you will not do it~! That's why I keep my mouth silent for requesting so. Anyway, thank you pi~

Going to have a Dong Zhi celebration + Christmas gift-giving celebration + Wey Seng's birthday celebration with friends on this Wednesday~ So excited for this coming day.First time to celebrate Dong Zhi with friends. It will definitely another enjoyable and memorable day! Everybody has been requested to prepare a gift by his or her own. Then we will randomly choose present to be given out to each person. Of course, we will not be giving the present to the person who bought it. What I hope is that they will not prepare those "swt" presents for us. I guess my face will be kinda emo if I receive those guys' presents. Lolz! Hope it will not be happened~

Sigh.. my face is not recovering from acne problem. I'm just getting more disappointed on those products nowadays. Every single step I have been followed. Yet, my face is still in such a terrible condition. I can see that my face was better last week but don't know why it became terrible this week. Can you imagine my feelings when I take photos? So many red dots on my face~!!!! In my age, it should be the most beautiful moment for a girl!! Yet my face destroys all my moments!! *super duper depress*
Those salesgirls keep recommending products to me. I just don't know whether I should show them a smile or angry face. I'm just an ordinary girl, I also want to be pretty like what other girls do.T_T
My face destroyed my confidence. It will then slowly destroy my smiley, I guess.
Looking at the products that I used, makes me even more depressed.

Reminder for myself:

• drink A LOT OF water!!
• SLEEP EARLY!!
• NO FRIED FOOD!!

pipi, help me!! =(

"Getting used to"

This phrase in fact makes me trembling. I'm particularly scared of getting used of something. As I know me myself would not want to change easily if I had get used to something. I hate changing. That's why I'm wondering how could I survive in this changing world. LOLZ~

Well, I'm getting used to the life with you. This somehow makes me feel uneasy in a world that without you, cant see you everyday, cant listen to your voice everyday and everything must be done by my own.All these facts make me realized that I'm relying on you more than what I've thought. Hope you wont think your little girl is not independent enough.

When the days are cold, God knows how badly I miss you. You always warmer than me, don't you know that you are my little oven? ^^ I hurt my wrist, I guess. It's so painful when I was trying to use energy. You wasn't here, with me. It wakes me up, for relying on myself when you are not around. My heart suddenly gets colder. Sigh.. I'm missing you, although you are just left for 2 days. Miss those days when you fetch me out and have meals with me. Yet, you seem to be so busy, until we have not more than 10 messages a day. Once again, my heart feels colder. What I can do is to hug my little patrick dogs. They are always loyal to me.

Once again, you are considering whether to follow my family going to Penang. I had decided for you that you don't need to follow. I'm scare. Yes, I'm scare. Scare that I will listen "No" from you. That's why I had decided for you. I don't want to give myself any hope as I know I will be very disappointed if you reject. Yet, you do not know my purpose for doing so and insist to decide yourself. I'm wondering, do you like my family? Just wanted to let you know that I will definitely put my family on the highest position in my heart. No one can change it, neither you. As usual, I cant win in any argument. Sometimes, I will wonder if you are listening to me. Hearing and listening are two different words. Hearing is an action that you just hear but do not get what people want to tell. Listening is an action that you can get what they wanted to express. So, you hear me, but didn't listen to me. Don't you? How hard I was trying to tell you but you will cut off my points sometimes. Am I that useless in giving opinions or expressing myself? This in fact depressed me and I do not feel like expressing myself sometimes.
*Such a gray feeling now*

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I can now officially declare my holiday to everyone~! Yes, finally I'm free from all those troublesome, at least for one week.Though, I still have to get my assignments done within this week. Sigh.