u know why am i saying like that? these are the evidences!!! what the hell!
firstly, today i am supposed to see the supplier which is the sixth time i had been found him.. but ended up he was not there!! damn!!! so angry! if he has supplied for another group then just inform us la? dont let us waiting and keep going to the place to find him ma.. any feel of responsibility also dont have! hate!

secondly, me and jiamei went to the baba nasi lemak there to ask for catering.. but then the boss told us that he is busy.. wont do catering.. what the hell! ok, fine.. but the nasi campur is superb!!
too bad he cant supply us.. if not sure earn profits!

the last but not least, my purse had been stolen!!!! shit! @#%&#@
i knew that it is my fault.. i shouldnt leave my purse in my bag.. security department also advised us not to leave expensive belongings in the shelf.. i had a uncomfortable feeling today. it seems like something is going to happen. i thought it is car accident. mana tau is lost purse.. sienzz.. once i saw my bag, i know something had happened. ya, i am right. my purse is lost. jiamei didnt believe and help me to search again. she asked me why i didnt have any expression on my face. sigh.. what kinda expression should i have? cry out loud? it is in public la.. i should keep my image. laugh out loud? i guess people will think i'm crazy.. calling to my mom and my dad.. my mom was shock and panic.. then ask me to call my dad.. i called my dad, he is much more calm as compared to my mom.sigh...

dont know how am i going back home. the only thing i know is go to my sis's room.. once my sis had opened the door, i started to cry.. (sobbing there while telling my sis what had happened) my sis lent me a RM50 note..
thank god nothing important inside my purse.. my IC is time for me to change it. my license can renew. my membership cards!! gone.. whatever..
my money!!! i just withdraw my money out few days ago.. sigh.. hope the thief will not use my money in my ATM.. i pray sincerely to god..

hah! we had done our social work today!!! hurray!!!(i feel like dancing around..)

haha.. i'm sweeping the leaves..

before this.. we had quite worried about it because of the approval problem.. we straight went there this morning, without receiving the approval letter from that particular charity organisation.. cool~

tired..rest for awhile first..

i woke up vy early today.. sleepy nia!! but still have to wake up.. sienzz.. then just ate 3 slides of bread.. one group of us, 2 cars.. people included are siew chinn (our project leader), me (one of the driver), shuhan, jiamei, jiajia, shiehying, yongann(another driver) and also yongkang(photograpgher).

really vy happy today.. although i'm sweeping the leaves all the time.. shoulder muscle pain.. T_T

yo!yo!

then we have lunch at newton.. i ate a lot of food!!! i need energy!! lol.. after that we went for carrefour to buy something to the charity as a donation.. bought meehoon, rice, condensed milk, milo, biscuits, and also oyster sauce(what? i wondered why they want this thing..)..then we went back to the building again.. and interact with the children who are having tuition there..

taking photo with Ms Molly

i had having a lot of fun with all of u guys~~

jiamei, dont always bully yongkang la.. he will let u bully is because he is so good.. haha..

why everytime when i need u, u will not around?
i'm nearly fed up with this kinda situation.. everytime i need u to be with me, by my side, u will not around.. fated? if it is, i will have nothing to talk about it..
helpless.. u wont know that kinda feeling..
if u are not able to do that thing, just dont promise me. i dont want everytime after u promised me, but u cannot do it. it will just make me feel disappointed.it is not everytime that i am able to console myself by saying that u are really busy with ur stuffs..
just dont promise me anything beyond ur strength. u will only destroy my trust on u..
really very sad and disappointed.
u are busy recently.. i know that..
i shouldnt blame on u.. i know that..
just cant control myself only.. maybe after that i will be better..hopefully..
wanted to talk to u..but i'm not brave enough.. just can write down my feelings here.. but i know u wont be able to see it..
u know why? it is simply because, u are not really understand about me.. so how can i consider u as a member of my family? although i had never been considered u as my family member.. dont blame me, because u are not, from past, now and future..

u said u want to bring me along to attend the dinner with LJ.. please la?! if i go, everybody will know what's that mean, except u.. sigh.. why dont u just care a little bit about my feeling?! do u really know that ur mui is not good in english speaking?! i'll only talk nothing and sit alone there..dont u ever think about this?! i nearly get mad about this matter! sigh.. speechless..

haizz.. these few weeks busy with my stuffs..discussions..assignments.. i seem like had a lot of things to do but the thing is, i dont know what to do.. my brain is out of function..mayb i didnt get enough sleep. this tuesday, skip 2 classes.. the first class i skipped is because i wan to meet the supplier with my friend.. second class i skipped is because i wanted to register my course in beta level. our action had been noticed, and the lecturer cancelled off our attendance. i had made my friends in trouble. sorry, really vy sorry, i didnt know about this. teach u all becoming bad students. sorry about it.

drama, my friend and i had done a script of the drama.. they all read it and our script had chosen! should i feel happy? it's expected. they all just copy and paste, surely ours will be chosen. sigh.. havent start to practise yet.. hopefully, it will be done smoothly.i hope, i pray.. sincerely..

business management presentation.. i had think of an interesting way to present. but i have to work harder to practise more.. fainted.. jiamei! u have to teach me ar... i'm in a big trouble now..i trust in u.. lol.. i will work harder! let's keep our good reputation as "the best group" together!hope this time we can maintain our reputation..

the moral social work.. really vy sad.. we had email to the director.. but she hasnt reply us.. confused.. T_T hope i can do this social work within this week.. next few weeks will be vy busy..

that fella promised me wants to perform to me, finally he kept his promise and perform his "er hu" to me.. pretty good.. enjoyed in it.. i did not tell him that his performance was good. i know he knew himself. and he is boasted enough to know his ability..
he is the first guy that i had no idea on him! have u ever see a boy is whacking a gal?! he has no gentleman sense la!! next time i should fight back! he has a "pig hand" and "horse foot".. damn pain la! shit..
today that fella is sad. u know why? because his friends all are bullying him by saying he falls in love in me.. lol.. for me, it is really a small matter. coz in secondary school, we used to "talk rubbish".. so i have the antibody dy. cant blame on that fella la, he is from boy's school. never face this situation before. but i really super swt when he told me what is happening. ok, normally, in this kinda situation, i think the gal should be the one who feels sad rite? reputation spoilt, "market" no more etc. but now mine and his position had turn the other way round. god! sienzz..
always said dont want others misunderstand us. hey, stupiak! the actions u did, ALL also will make people misunderstand us la! haizz.. when comes to this thing, i always will feel that i'm dealing with a 3 years old boy. so "clean" in his mind.. dont know how to communicate with him.

i cant do anything. if not he will like a kid. _-_
whatever la.. just censor those things that i dont want to hear, dont want to see.. ur fault! sigh... sometimes i really feel like open ur brain, and see what's inside.. pek cek..

我同意..有男女的地方,就会有爱出现..因为男生和女生是互相吸引的..
爱情,对绝大多数的人来说,是不可缺少的东西..他们可以没有钱,可以不要面子,但是爱情绝不能没有..
很遗憾的,爱情对于我,次于家人与金钱..换句话说,它不是什么不可缺少的东西..
你可以说我现实..我不介意..
或许应该说我自私吧?还是太理智?一旦那一段已经被我认定是不可能的爱情,我会以最快的速度抽身而起..长痛不如短痛..
以往的我都是很理智的..为什么这一次的我会这么糊涂..每一步都是错的..明知道结局会是怎样的..
反常了..这不是个好的现象..
虽然知道解决的方法..可是..我真失败啊..
叹~再这样下去..会很痛苦的..何必,为了现在的快乐..让以后都活在痛苦中?
你是知道的..我也是知道..
为什么会给我遇到这种麻烦的事情?!为什么....

sigh.. super moody.. many assignments.. have to find group members.. luckily most of them are 6 ppl in one group.. business project needs 12 ppl in one group.. last couple days i was so scare and panic.. my heart almost cant afford it..
i felt so angry and disappointed.. i thought that "someone" should be join my group.. i thought he had promised me since last sem? although i didnt put so much expectation on him.. but he should know about my situation now isn't it? ok, fine.. he joint others.. when i got to know this news, i cant even control my feeling well.. straight away sign out msn.. off my phone.. sat on my chair doing nothing.. idle there.. for a very very long time.. somemore in that afternoon, i felt myself was neglected.. this is not a good situation for me.. i dont like that kinda feeling.. feel like telling somebody else about my feelings.. but nobody's there.. ok, fine..
but, luckily.. the day after that day, we have grouped.. suddenly felt that my feelings are balanced.. if not, i will get mad..
the most headache thing.. my english drama.. both of us were neglected, once again.. i was trying so hard to calm myself down..i hate ppl break their promise.. i hate to listen to "sorry" this word.. sigh.. but what to do? i'm not police so i cant catch anyone of them.. i'm not god so i cant make anyone of them die straight in front of me.. what i have to do is searching group members.. finally, we found two indian gals.. god bless me.. hope that the are not that kinda lazy ppl.. marks for this drama are high!! i dont want to lose marks.. i dont want blackies to join us.. really dont want.. arh!!!
actually, i wanted to be the group leader for business project.. but i think nobod will agree with me.. i scare myself cant handle it.. so i just kept quiet.. let fate to choose for us.. i'm not the group leader of course.. fated.. nothing much i can say.. so i decided to do the accounting group leader.. erm.. it's kinda easy job.. by the way, i have to do from the basic.. i have many sem to go through.. so it must have a chance for me to be the group leader.. ^^
sorry, jia mei.. i know u will feel headache while handling us this gang.. but we will do our best!! and help u whenever u ar in need..
and thank you.. lucky to have u in pm08.. if not i sure died over there.. everything also needs u to initiate it.. sorry about that.. one sem only!! the next sem we can be together with the rest of the gang~
everything will be alright.. will be ok.. dont feel so stress.. sigh..

i told u dy.. u dont believe it. now u see.. what's ur feeling now? sad? disappoint? frustrated? or feel like dying?
told u many many many times.. it had been a thousand times i told u, i remind u.. but at last? all are the same effect.. what for?
humans are not trustable! they are untrustable. how many times i need to remind u? keep trusting people.. keep giving people chances to hurt u.. then? heart break? is that vy meaningful
for u?
dont put so high expectation on people. people ma on meet ur expectations. so, dont give chances to urself to expect other people can do well.
ok, u will ask, how about his/her promises? i know promises really mean a lot to u.. i also knew that nobody cares about ur feelings.. but so what?! they dont bother or care u, that's their business. dont too mind about what are others thinking on u. please la? relax gal.. people who do not keep their promises on u, are those who u need not to care to. u know the reason..
it is not a big deal!alone ma alone lo.. i rather to have few besties..