a headache sem..

sigh.. super moody.. many assignments.. have to find group members.. luckily most of them are 6 ppl in one group.. business project needs 12 ppl in one group.. last couple days i was so scare and panic.. my heart almost cant afford it..
i felt so angry and disappointed.. i thought that "someone" should be join my group.. i thought he had promised me since last sem? although i didnt put so much expectation on him.. but he should know about my situation now isn't it? ok, fine.. he joint others.. when i got to know this news, i cant even control my feeling well.. straight away sign out msn.. off my phone.. sat on my chair doing nothing.. idle there.. for a very very long time.. somemore in that afternoon, i felt myself was neglected.. this is not a good situation for me.. i dont like that kinda feeling.. feel like telling somebody else about my feelings.. but nobody's there.. ok, fine..
but, luckily.. the day after that day, we have grouped.. suddenly felt that my feelings are balanced.. if not, i will get mad..
the most headache thing.. my english drama.. both of us were neglected, once again.. i was trying so hard to calm myself down..i hate ppl break their promise.. i hate to listen to "sorry" this word.. sigh.. but what to do? i'm not police so i cant catch anyone of them.. i'm not god so i cant make anyone of them die straight in front of me.. what i have to do is searching group members.. finally, we found two indian gals.. god bless me.. hope that the are not that kinda lazy ppl.. marks for this drama are high!! i dont want to lose marks.. i dont want blackies to join us.. really dont want.. arh!!!
actually, i wanted to be the group leader for business project.. but i think nobod will agree with me.. i scare myself cant handle it.. so i just kept quiet.. let fate to choose for us.. i'm not the group leader of course.. fated.. nothing much i can say.. so i decided to do the accounting group leader.. erm.. it's kinda easy job.. by the way, i have to do from the basic.. i have many sem to go through.. so it must have a chance for me to be the group leader.. ^^
sorry, jia mei.. i know u will feel headache while handling us this gang.. but we will do our best!! and help u whenever u ar in need..
and thank you.. lucky to have u in pm08.. if not i sure died over there.. everything also needs u to initiate it.. sorry about that.. one sem only!! the next sem we can be together with the rest of the gang~
everything will be alright.. will be ok.. dont feel so stress.. sigh..