sigh.. super moody.. many assignments.. have to find group members.. luckily most of them are 6 ppl in one group.. business project needs 12 ppl in one group.. last couple days i was so scare and panic.. my heart almost cant afford it..
i felt so angry and disappointed.. i thought that "someone" should be join my group.. i thought he had promised me since last sem? although i didnt put so much expectation on him.. but he should know about my situation now isn't it? ok, fine.. he joint others.. when i got to know this news, i cant even control my feeling well.. straight away sign out msn.. off my phone.. sat on my chair doing nothing.. idle there.. for a very very long time.. somemore in that afternoon, i felt myself was neglected.. this is not a good situation for me.. i dont like that kinda feeling.. feel like telling somebody else about my feelings.. but nobody's there.. ok, fine..
but, luckily.. the day after that day, we have grouped.. suddenly felt that my feelings are balanced.. if not, i will get mad..
the most headache thing.. my english drama.. both of us were neglected, once again.. i was trying so hard to calm myself down..i hate ppl break their promise.. i hate to listen to "sorry" this word.. sigh.. but what to do? i'm not police so i cant catch anyone of them.. i'm not god so i cant make anyone of them die straight in front of me.. what i have to do is searching group members.. finally, we found two indian gals.. god bless me.. hope that the are not that kinda lazy ppl.. marks for this drama are high!! i dont want to lose marks.. i dont want blackies to join us.. really dont want.. arh!!!
actually, i wanted to be the group leader for business project.. but i think nobod will agree with me.. i scare myself cant handle it.. so i just kept quiet.. let fate to choose for us.. i'm not the group leader of course.. fated.. nothing much i can say.. so i decided to do the accounting group leader.. erm.. it's kinda easy job.. by the way, i have to do from the basic.. i have many sem to go through.. so it must have a chance for me to be the group leader.. ^^
sorry, jia mei.. i know u will feel headache while handling us this gang.. but we will do our best!! and help u whenever u ar in need..
and thank you.. lucky to have u in pm08.. if not i sure died over there.. everything also needs u to initiate it.. sorry about that.. one sem only!! the next sem we can be together with the rest of the gang~
everything will be alright.. will be ok.. dont feel so stress.. sigh..

i told u dy.. u dont believe it. now u see.. what's ur feeling now? sad? disappoint? frustrated? or feel like dying?
told u many many many times.. it had been a thousand times i told u, i remind u.. but at last? all are the same effect.. what for?
humans are not trustable! they are untrustable. how many times i need to remind u? keep trusting people.. keep giving people chances to hurt u.. then? heart break? is that vy meaningful
for u?
dont put so high expectation on people. people ma on meet ur expectations. so, dont give chances to urself to expect other people can do well.
ok, u will ask, how about his/her promises? i know promises really mean a lot to u.. i also knew that nobody cares about ur feelings.. but so what?! they dont bother or care u, that's their business. dont too mind about what are others thinking on u. please la? relax gal.. people who do not keep their promises on u, are those who u need not to care to. u know the reason..
it is not a big deal!alone ma alone lo.. i rather to have few besties..

haha.. now only i realised that, actually, guys in love will be very stupid. somehow, they will do something considered stupid by girls. moreover, i think that girls will be very kesian, if they met this kinda guys. stupid guys..sigh.. (thanks meimei for telling me this. ^^)
so, i am thinking that, if continue like that, dont know when is my that gorgor will get a girlfriend. pretty worry about it.
my gorgor? haizz.. sucks la. always do something ridiculuos. somemore without the notice of the girl. pity pity..everyday seems to be very smart, but when comes to this kinda problem, his reaction is just like a boy with his first love. feel shy somemore. i one time slap to let u fly! this called guy ar?! (haizz.. i feel like banging the wall..)
how i know he falls for the girl? i got my way to know it~
:P
just because that girl is my besties lo. i'm started to think that is it he wants me to be his mui just because of that girl. lol..hmm.. the possibility quite big. but so what? i got a "kind" and "scary" gorgor~ somemore can bully him.
haizz.. but i will feel sorry to him la if i never do anything for him. lol..
hmm.. tell that girl about his? that's a good idea. but dont know whether my gorgor will kill me later on or not. and the problem is, if that girl knows about this thing, will she dont want to talk to him forever? the possibility also quite high. i know her very well.
ermm.. then ask my gorgor to be confessed to her? omg.. dont do that. i will be crazy, not him. he will scold me for a couple of weeks. dont.. dont.. never do this.
errr.. then.. just let it be?
har.. dont want dont want. or.. be friends first? but i dont think that girl will go yum cha with us lo. later teased by her.. even worse.. then how?
haizz.. stupid la gorgor! just be confessed la! dont bother any other thing! u have to believe that the power of love is the strongest wat! so lame la u..
okok.. i know the reason. but u can create some miracles right? left one semester only. there is an oppoturnity for u, dont miss it! or else u go back ur hometown eat urself!
if u dare to scold me even once, u will know the impact. well, i assumed that u knew it.

that's why i said u lame! i said u lame then u are lame! no more excuses! make me worry for such a long time. u shouldn't let this thing happened. oh my god, my dark eyes circle..my eye bags.. getting worse..
yes, is ur fault. admit it~ (if u dont admit, i will whack u!)

just go on! be ur mui, i surely stand by ur side one.. need not to worry k?haha..

hey! why i am the one who are worried about this thing?! -.-
hng.. dont care already. i want to prepare for my final!! blek! >.<

怎么了..怎么我觉得今天的夜晚特别孤单..呵..就像此刻的我..既无助又无奈..
该开心还是伤心呢?开心?可为什么我的泪不会停止?好不容易找到的朋友..又要离我而去..真不甘啊..可又能怎样?除了无奈..还是无奈..
你应该感到幸运..我第一次为离去而流泪..竟然是为了你..了不起了哦?!可是你不会知道..我也不会笨到让你知道..免得你飞了上天还要我把你拉回来..
应该要开心的..还有一个学期..还有一个..不长亦不短..恨它太短,因为我们还没有制造许多美好的回忆..恨它太长,因为越是看见你,就会觉得自己会舍不得你..太舍不得的时候我会把你帮起来的哦!呵..
保持得到吗?我们的友谊..应该吧..希望以后跟你聊天你不会嫌我烦..还能摸摸你的头..还能听你像个大人似的教导我..还能听到你真心要我改掉坏毛病的唠叨..还能听到你为了我的好,不惜以威胁的方式来逼我..
我就像个长不大的小孩..虽然有时侯你比我表现得更像个孩子..可我就喜欢造反..在你还没来得及生气以前做个好孩子..让你哭笑不得..每次都说自己是个最好的听众..可是每次的听众都会是你..也只有你会有耐心听完我的长篇大论..还会加以分析..只有你会已真心话来和我交谈..该挑剔的时候,该分享的时候,该骂我的时候,该唠叨我的时候,该称赞我的时候..一切的一切..慢慢适应了有你的日子..慢慢觉得你做的事情是那么的理所当然,而我又是那么理所当然的接受着..
你走了以后..我该怎么办..
一些事情..我没说,并不代表我不懂..我不说,是因为你没说..你没说,是因为不想让我担心..所以..我不能再让你担心了..你要忙的东西已经够多了..不是吗?我们会留下美好的回忆..足够我们用一辈子来回忆..我们.. .. 会是好朋友的..虽然不是最好的..却已心满意足.. 再一次.. 很高兴认识你..
看吧..眼睛肿得跟合桃似的..怎么睡啊?!都是你啦!害我的..

唉..每次写部落格都会隔段很久的时间.. 对不起啦.. 因为我一想到要把自己所想的事情写出来就觉得别扭的说..而且啊..我的感觉都是"非笔墨能形容"的..为什么啊? 因为就算我的感觉已经多到满出来..还是不会表达到我所要的..(郁闷啊....)

认识了很多人..了解到许多的事情..发生了太多意想不到的情况..但还是很侥幸的渡过两个学期..不错不错..

我觉得呢..上天没有把我遗忘..真的很感谢..在我对人生..对友谊失望时..让我认识了那么多的朋友..我会珍惜..
曾经的一切让我失去了信任的勇气..常常把自己锁在自己的城墙内..形成自我保护的屏幕..把自己保护的好好的.. 活在只有自己的世界里..当我想再次打开自己的城门时,才发现自己已不能和陌生人沟通..一旦陌生人靠近,自己会很自然的以一副没有表情的脸示人..和陌生人交谈,身体会不自觉的颤抖..
很努力..很努力的让自己接近一些朋友..终于有了一些好转..因为我会对别人微笑了..其他人不知道..我是花了多大的努力..费了多少时间让自己跨出这一步..
会的..一切会好转的..对不对? ....

1011, a special digits to me and wee san.. and also takeshi.. haha.. it is because 11 october is our BIRTHDAY!! this is the first time i pass my birthday without my parents side.. sigh!! sad!! this blog was created at 2007, was a birthday present to wee san.. so it's a need to write in our blog during every birthday!! so, guys?? can i say this is a 1st anniversary birthday especially for this blog?? yeah!! congratulations !! guys, we need to celebrate it right?? of course need!! so, wee san, how you celebrate your birthday?? for me, i have no idea with my birthday at all!! sad!! erm.. nothing to say already.. anyway, i wanna wish wee san...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
&
HAPPY ALWAYS..

P/S : you guys know what i am doing when i write this blog?? guess?? i am listen to tension - 'our story'..

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在你左右还有多久
怎么样才能让时间倒流每一分每一秒都珍重
握紧的手不愿放松十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流我必须要走要记得~~~
我们的故事真难忘太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘太多的情节要发展
不要放弃因为有一天缘份会继续
wo一定会继续
我知道你寂寞一个人确实好难过
思念是一种痛没有你叫我怎么活
身边充满诱惑不坚定就容易犯错
你是否能看见未来的收获你愿意在耐心等候
我们的故事真难忘太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘太多的情节要发展
不要放弃因为有一天缘份会继续
让我们一起演完

by,
libra girl
11/10/2008

hey guys!! this is the first time i write in our blog.. because i realize that many of my classmates have their own blog.. think like i am a bit outdated.. erm.. today, for me, actually is a sad day.. why i am saying like that? it is because today i got morning class, 8am... econs class and got quiz! once i am opened my sleepy eyes, u know what happen? it's 8.20am!! i am very curious about why my phone alarm didn't ring ?? why?somebody tell me?? it suppose to ring at 6.50 am.. maybe that time i turned it off then continue to sleep.. somebody help me??!! i just can rushed in and out.. after brushed teeth, i just took my bag and ran to campus.. and i didn't use the stupid and slow lift.. 4th floor you know?? the time that i reached my class was at 8.35am something.. fast right? but after i sat down, i realized that the
QUIZ IS OVER!!
OMG!! it contribute 5% in my final exam!! feel like wanna die already!! after the class end, i saw there got a few students discussed with my lecturer.. whether can give them a chance to sit for the quiz o not?? yes, i can see the light of hope! but i know that my econs lecturer won't be soooo good!! he sure will not allow us to sit for the quiz since we are late to his class without a good reason..i think that if other lecturer like business maths they sure will give us the chance.. but econs lecturer i don't think so.. BINGO! he not allow me to sit for the quiz! got one indian girl can sit for the quiz because she said that she went to the temple to pray, so she was late to class.. i feel like wanna cry already!! sob sob..maybe in secondary school, 5% will not cause the result worse but in mmu, it's wrong!! it's mean that others' full mark is 100% and mine one is 95% only.. such a damn lecturer! he's too strict!! this is the first i late to the class!! and i was bad luck also.. it was the first time i am late, and it is the first time econs lecturer wants us to sit the quiz at the beginning of the class.. TOO BAD!
after i back home, i msn with my sisters and i told them about this.. my sister said i am so stupid!! she said i should tell my lecturer that since this morning i am not feeling well, stomach pain.. when the lecturer ask for mc, i can said haven't seek for the doctor.. after the class i will go clinic.. i also agree with my sister- i am stupid enough! maybe that way, my lecturer will let me sit for the make up quiz.. but it's too late!! why i want to told my lecturer that i am slept over??
but now can't do anything since he is not allow me to sit for the quiz..
so, what can i do??.... i don't know.. just learn from my mistake... and tell myself
i will NEVER late again!!

kelling, try harder and fight back the 5% for damn econs!!



by: kelling
25 sept 2008