Tonight supposedly to go out with you and my bestie. But ended up my bestie put me aeroplane, had her meeting at 10pm, which was our outing time. =(

However, felt quite happy as you sacrificed your precious time to fulfill your promise. Though it was just a thought that I suddenly popped up while I was emo, you kept that in mind and tried your best to fulfill it. I did appreciate it, sincerely. 

Beach, it doesn't mean anything to some people. Yet, it means a lot to me. I like to feel the sea breeze, looking the moon and stars in the dark sky. It calms down my emotion, heart and mind. I actually like to stay silence while I am at the beach but I scare you will not get used to this kinda situation. So, once again, I chose to be noisy, kept on talking and chit chatting.

In fact, I felt guilty, for wasting your time. Sigh.. Can't you just reject us whenever you feel not free? Although we knew that you are definitely not being forced to attend. Yet, our heart will feel so guilty and sorry about you.

I found myself like to relate you to other girls. Lolz.. this feeling was not good at all, though. I just like to do so. Am I abusing myself? XD Treat myself so cruel. Too bad. >.<"

Thank you. You mark all my words in your mind. So it means that at least, I'm not that nonsense in your mind. I do appreciate it.

Since when you had bear the responsibility to remind me to sleep early? You should have remind yourself as well to sleep early. Every night sleeps late, not good for our health. Hope you listen my advice.

Share one super nice song's lyrics to all of you, entitled "Baby I'm amazed by you, Bryan Adams"

Every time our eyes meet

This feeling inside me

Is almost more than I can take

Baby when you touch me

I can feel how much you love me

And it just blows me away

I've never been this close to anyone or anything

I can hear your thoughts

I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do

I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better

I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side

Forever and ever

Every little thing that you do

Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin

The taste of your kiss

The way you whisper in the dark

Your hair all around me, baby you surround me

You touch every place in my heart

Oh, it feels like the first time every time

I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do

I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better

I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side

Forever and ever

Every little thing that you do

Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do

I'm so in love with you

It just keeps getting better

I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side

Forever and ever

Every little thing that you do

Oh, every little thing that you do

Baby I'm amazed by you

~I realized that, I like the smell of you. XD Maybe is the smell of your clothes, maybe is the smell of your body shampoo. Anyway, I just feel comfort, so in love with it~

Tonight is 七夕情人节~ 祝我自己七夕情人节快乐～

Too bad, the sky after a heavy rain today, full of clouds~ can't even discover one tiny star. =(
Tonight should be the first night that nothing happened for this month.

Had a burger with cheese, for my supper. Oh my goodness, I had taken unhealthy food!! I broke my own mission. But I'm too hungry until do not know what can i eat. =(

Every night drinks green tea, hope can better my health's condition. I knew my own health condition. It's no longer in good situation. It shows some signals for me. Yet, I had ignored them for few months. Hope I can recover soon.

Finally my lovely sister had decided to upload her wedding photos to fb. She said she was damn not satisfied with her own wedding photos and will definitely find someday to snap a whole new set again. However, we all thought that her wedding photos are really very nice. But she only uploaded 3 photos to her fb album. Within one day, there are more than 20 people like her photos. I told her, her wedding photos are nice. Now that have others to prove my statement.

I think my mom is a very cute person. She called me tonight, asked me don't be late return home as now is the Chinese Ghost Month. I promised her. And she turned up and said she wanna watch movie with my dad. So now what, she herself banned me from late going back home but watched movie with my dad until late night. LOLZ~ Anyway, I chose to listen to my mom. And my mom is just so cute, isn't she?



~The feeling u gave me tonight, so unreal. That's not the usual one. Have to give me some time to accept u. haha!~
~Thanks, for being the first to wish me today~ ^^

1，是你的，永遠都是你的；不是你的，不管你怎麼掙，怎麼搶，也都不會屬於你；

2，並不是聊得來，就適合在一起；並不是適合，就能夠在一起；並不是能夠在一起，就會永遠在一起；也並不是永遠在一起了就會幸福。

3，走的最急的是最美的風景；傷的最深的是最真的感情。

4，當身邊的朋友說你是瘋子的時候，成功離你不遠了。

5，在事實面前，你的想像力越發達，後果就越不堪設想。

6，地球是運動的，一個人不可能永遠處在倒霉的位置。

7，你永遠看不見我眼裡的淚水，因為只有你不在的時候，我才會哭泣。

8，時間就像一張網，你撒在哪裡，收穫就在哪裡。

9，理想和現實總是有差距的，幸好有差距，不然，誰還稀罕理想。

10，人生的兩大悲劇莫過於：得不到想要東西和得到不想要的東西。

11，成熟不是心變老，而是，當眼淚在眼睛裡打轉時卻還保持微笑。

12，女人要常常告誡自己：「不要在一顆樹上吊死」，否則，你將會很慘。

13，愛情就像手裡的沙子，攥的越緊，流的越快。

14，低頭要有勇氣，抬頭要有底氣。

15，人生就像一杯茶，苦...也只會是一陣子，不會苦一輩子。

16，傻與不傻，要看你會不會裝傻。

17，女人用友情拒絕愛情，男人用友情換取愛情。

18，你以為最酸的感覺莫過於吃醋，不是的，最酸的感覺是你無權吃醋。

19，真正的朋友是什麼？真正的的朋友是把你看透了，還喜歡你、願意和你成為朋友的人。

20，當我們搬開了別人的絆腳石時，也許恰恰是在為自己鋪路。

21，如果無法忘記他，就不要忘記好了，真正的忘記是不需要努力的。

22，再醜的人也能結婚，再美的人也會單身。

23，因為愛過，所以慈悲；因為懂得，所以寬恕。

24，某些人的愛情，只是一種「當時的情緒」，如果對方錯將這份情緒當做長遠的愛情，是本身的幼稚。

25，男人哭了，是因為他真的愛了；女人哭了，是因為她真的放棄了。

26，能夠說出的委屈，便不是委屈；能夠搶走的愛人，便不是愛人。

27，當一個女子在看天空的時候，她並不是想尋找什麼，她只是寂寞。

28，無論怎樣，一個人藉故墮落，總是不值得原諒的，越是沒人愛，越要愛自己。

29，對不起是一種真誠，沒關係是一種風度；如果你付出了真誠，卻得不到風度，那只能說明對方的無知與粗俗。

30，人們日常所犯的最大的錯誤，是對陌生人太客氣，而對最親密的人太苛刻，把這個壞習慣改過來，天下太平。

~it is so meaningful that i can't help to let myself emo..~

I officially failed myself. No cure at all for myself, just simply wait for die will do.

Fine, just continue some topics that i had forgotten to write yesterday.
I had played Tarot cards. Asked some questions, for me and my friends, of course, couldn't less your part.
The question I had asked, how will it be for our relationship?
Card chosen: The Devil.
I totally helpless for this card. It is just clearly defined what will be happened between us. Pretty fine huh.. Ya, I did know that.
Yesterday, chat for 15hours. We had broke our records. It actually can drag longer. But I had just nearly lost of control while u had said something, requested to know something. Something that i wouldn't want to let u know, and didn't want u to know.
Sorry for being impolite, in the way i speech.

Once, I thought the most happiest thing in this world will be, your message just appeared  when i was hesitate whether I should be more active to chat with u.
That kinda happiness, is just indescribable by all means.

However, u lied. Although it was a small matter, I just can't get through it when I found out that u lied. I hate the feeling of doubt, either doubt others, or being doubt by others. Because this is an act of  mistrust. It will affect any type of relationship. I had to be hardly convinced by myself. Glad that u still can be honest and confessed what u had lied. Maybe I am just too tired, or too disappointed, I felt I had no energy to keep my image and be happy in front of u. Just too lazy to listen and reply all ur things.



~need some time to relax my mind~

1、自己走路会很快 
2、喜欢黑夜，习惯晚睡 
3、隐藏心事，喜欢一个人流泪 
4、喜欢有口袋的衣服，否则不知道手该放哪里 
5、习惯抱臂 
6、习惯冷战 
7、喜欢窗户，喜欢角落、习惯蜷缩 
8、喜欢写字和阅读 
9、莫名地孤单，无法抗拒的恐惧感 
10、不爱说话或很爱说话 
11、心事放在心底，有一个自己的世界 
12、把笑挂在脸上，幻想自己是有安全感的孩子 
13、习惯了沉默，在沉默中爆发或者选择灭亡 
14、习惯了怀疑，却总是要把人往好处想 
15、不相信童话，却一直期待会有个真正懂得自己保护自己的人出现 
16、喜欢怀旧，之后感到深深的寂寞和恐惧 
17、不喜欢一个人逛街可又总是一个人逛街 
18、一点点事就胡思乱想，想到戏剧般的吓人 
19、喜欢听慢歌，伤感的歌 
20、会很用心地记下生命中出现的每个人 
21、习惯暗恋，爱上一个人会全心全意 
22、坐在电脑前，不知道做什么，却又不想关掉它 
23、觉得世界上每一个人都不可靠，但却还是那样地选择相信别人 
24、偶尔会有种想消失，或是想一辈子沉睡的想法 
25、不喜欢等待，却总是等待 
26、经常不经意的发呆 
27、习惯活在过去，喜欢怀旧 
28、总会把事情想得很长久 
29、不习惯一个人莫名其妙地消失在自己的生命中 
30、总是觉得没有人能把自己放在心里疼 
31、容易满足，更容易受伤 
32、喜欢伤感，甚至颓废 
33、习惯保留自己，因为只有这样在离开的时候，心才不会痛 
34、总有一种，被忽视的感觉 
35、看似花心，看似肤浅，其实是在保护自己 
36、付出的远远超过得到的 
37、很固执，不懂得放弃，但一旦放弃了就绝不会回头 
38、总是说着要离开，却一再为自己找不离开的理由 
39、在别人面前笑得很开心，一个人的时候却很漠落 
40、在陌生人面前很安静，在朋友面前胡闹 
41、玩网游只是为了打发寂寞 
42、喜欢下小雨时淋雨 
43.、并不是所要的太多的回报，只要一点点就可以让我们死心塌地，可以很少，但一定要有 
44、心情不好的时候，却喜欢听悲歌 


how true.. T_T


~I trained, if I can ban myself from chatting with u continuously. Hope I wont get a F for this mission~

Hmm.. Yesterday did not update my blog. So i will just upload two days' into one blog. How lazy. One of the reason is that, my friend was staying at my home last night. I will feel weird if they are looking at me to update my blog. Now, before going for a movie on a sweet Saturday with my besties, I update my blog. XD

Yesterday night went for group study with my friends. I actually totally didn't feel like going as i can't sure whether i can pretend myself as there was nothing happened on myself.

However, if i were a lecturer, i will definitely fail "me" yesterday. The mood was so uncontrollable. What was i thinking!!

These days, I think I had increased the times that I day dreaming. I can just stare on a thing then think nothing. I had lost the "me" before.
I was quite speechless, when my parents suspected me, has had a bf, secretly, without their knowing. I was so lazy to explain. This made them thought of other more speechless things to me. Such as, I chose not to go back hometown this week. This made them thought that I wanted to have "2 people world" with my bf. *wordless*
Yesterday's study group, movie watching, made them thought me and my bf are in a "sweet condition".
Goodness! I didn't have bf!! How am I going to explain to make you all believe? sigh..

I wanted to ask, you.
Have you think of me, when you are too involve into her things? I was confused, that time. Emotion then lost of control.
At last, I got a conclusion. If she is the one you want, I will help you. We are friends, aren't we?
Your happiness will be my greatest happiness.
Yet, I can't sure that, whether i can still be that close to you, if you have gf already. Sorry, I'm willing to bear any word that you want to scold.


~If I'm not the one you want, what i can do is just let you go. I knew this theory, I understand this theory, just that it's hard for me to apply it on u. Sorry, once again.~

Today was a tiring day. As I yesterday slept very late, today woke up very early, and didn't take my sweetest nap. I don't really understand what did I do during the whole day. Tired for the whole day, at last fed up and skipped my Japanese class, felt guilty. XD

I love the feeling of sitting inside a car, go anywhere with no directions, and talking sharing chit chatting with each others. I think that, most of the people will share out their things when they are sitting in the car. Just have the feeling. Maybe is because of the ambiance, maybe is because of nothing else can chat, but I still love the feeling of sharing.

Tonight, you did share a lot. Pity you. You are the one who particularly don't like to share all your things out. Yet, I knew, you also wanted to know our things. So, you made an exchange. I think you loss a lot. As we are normal to share our things out, but you had sacrificed to share so many important things, included your friends' unknown things. How bad you~ ^^"

You said you will definitely regret for what you had did tonight. But, I will definitely be thankful to you for what you did tonight.

I told you that one of the reason I don't have bf is because of those time we were too young to have a relationship. We don't even know what thing that we actually want.
You asked me, " so is that big enough for you to have a relationship now?"
I wanted to answer you. Yes, I'm big enough to handle a relationship well, I think.. ^^
What we have is time, I can just wait for time to fly by. It's okay. Leave you to think what you are really need now.

My gastric had just annoyed me for two whole days. It made me so not having the appetite to eat. can help me keep fit. not bad, after all.=.="
The food I ate for the whole day, can be just equal to one meal taken normally. @.@"
Not feeling hungry at all, and still, feel like vomiting all the things I had eaten out. Skipped dinner, no supper. But now made me hungry like hell. =(


~I will always remember what you had shared. No worries~ XD