hmm.. today is the day to give answer.. but he didnt contact me yet.. so i'm waiting..

told my family about this thing yesterday night.. =.=

they were more excited than me.. i also dont understand why.. my dad analysed everything out..

so the main reason they thought about is, this is a distance love, hard to maintain.. -i had the same idea too-

whatever, he wont do anything probably.. so tell him also useless.. sigh.. i understood the reason, though it's hard to be accepted..

suak la.. this kinda thing, just follow the fate.. it makes me so troublesome and headache.. let's enjoy the single life.. yes, i rather enjoy single..

today went to jusco.. my mom wanted to buy red wine.. coz it's going to have a party to celebrate my sister's engagement.. decided to call along my friends to my house.. but then it's too bad luck.. the part is on 25th of july, but 27th of july is my first midterm test.. nobody will attend.. so just let it be.. @.@"

then i bought "salonpas" for my friend, "the rock".. haha!

she told me that her shoulder is pain yesterday.. so i bought this for her lo.. hope can help to relief pain.. coz heard my sister said, "salonpas" is good to relief pain..

tonight will be a lazy night.. lazy to do assignment, lazy to do homework.. sigh.. i am a lazy girl~~ >.<"

sigh.. today morning received a call from somebody, said that the party that will be held on sunday is cancelled. i sms to jessy to confirm about this, she gave me a reason : bbq party will make people get sick easily in this time..and no other plan can replace this party event..so cancelled.. -zha dou-

today is just busy sent pictures to friends~ took a lot of nice photos.. yesterday was an super memorable and enjoyable day for us, ji mui~ -lazy to upload photos dy.. >.< -

today.. it is also a very shock and surprising day.. somebody confessed to me.. in fact, i expected he will confess, but not now.. we both knew that it is not the right timing for us to have a further our relationship.. how can u want me to maintain a distance love, by using my first love.. once i think about this, i will be depressed, so kesian neh!!!

confessed using sms, so chicken la u! lolz.. but it's ok.. we are still besties..i am still ur loyal listener.. we can still share our things with each other.. i just want us to have more time to know each other, to learn more.. me and u, just knew for 1 year.. not even 1 year.. it is out of my expectation..

u had told me before, u dont want me to have a high expectation on u.. i know, i understand.. but now u are the one who is not understand it, obviously.. if i accepted, u have more responsibilities and burdens to bear with.. can u? we both are beginners, we have to go through and overcome a lot of problems.. it needs patience and time to do so.. can i? am i able to do so? the answer for both of the questions is no.. u are just followed feelings.. it will spoil everything, including our relationship as besties..

u know what.. from besties to couples, it is very easy.. really easy.. but everything has to change.. it has good and bad sides.. so, why dont we both give more time for us.. isn't it good? isn't it the thing that u wanted since long time ago? please.. dont spoil our friendship..

so, u asked me to give u an answer to u tomorrow.. answer is obviously shown.. hope u will understand and accept the current situation we having now.. that will be good and relief.. =)

hmm.. i want to write this blog, though it has nothing for me to write about. think of these few weeks, what had i did? er.. probably nothing.
i had joined few clubs and societies. joined their sub-comm as well. hope that i can cope with these tasks. no choice, SAPS points are tempted..
as usual, busy with tutorials, assignments, quizzes and homework. @.@"
how badly i wish i'm working now. so that i wont have to face this kinda stupid things.

tomorrow will be a happy day to me. (hopefully)
the planning which i had planned since last year (=.="), at last, finally, have come true~ my friends and i, are going to ZOO melaka tomorrow!!! haha!i know some of them might not like to go to zoo. because it is dirty, smelly and the weather is torturing too. hehe.. though they are still willing to go with me~ how good u all.. love u all~

after that, we will go to DP.. plan to take photos.. those with "big head" one..
-hard praying-
hope tomorrow will be a nice weather~

LOLz.. today just played a test. "when will u get ur next boyfriend/girlfriend"
the result shows that i will never get a next boyfriend.
but i dont have boyfriend currently.. shit.. that means i will single in my life.. T_T
sigh.. what a life i'm having now..
but i know, this kinda thing is fated. maybe i need to wait for the Mr Right.. (consoling myself)..
maybe.. haizz.. suak la.. dont care about this thing dy.. dont have ma dont have lo.. it's nothing so big deal wat!! blek..

going to celebrate zhu gay fan and ji fan's birthday this coming sunday.. jifan doesnt know that we are going to celebrate her birthday as well.. lol.. we are planned to give her a surprise.. havent choose the present for her yet. @.@"
totally have no idea for the present.
heard that they had invited many people to come for the BBQ party.
probably, i will be sitting in front of the BBQ boat, isolated from people.. haizz.. what to do? this is me..
somebody is invited also. but geh si geh si doesnt want to come.. keep asking me whether want somebody to come. just decide yourself la. dont ask me. i am lose thinking power of making decision. so long never make decision dy. so dont ask me.

just now told me that somebody wont come.. do u think that i will sad for u? no, u are wrong, totally. this is non of my business. it's up to u whether u want to come. i still can enjoy myself. no worries.

in fact, i have to tell u that, u are actually still care for M. just admit it. but u dont want, and deny. haizz.. maybe u urself dont know this thing yet. since u are denied, so i dont have the responsibility to let u know. non of my business dy.. ^.^
one more thing.. u denied, it's ok.. but u are talked so bad words about her. it;s really unacceptable. i was so surprised! how could u say a girl until like that. explained to u, but u rejected my explanation.
felt so disappointed to u.. u're not respecting girls. how worse are u!the most basic thing, but u dont know, keep denying, keep rejecting others' explanation.
that's why.. u are not worth and not deserved to have any girl beside u. so sucks!
if u continue with such attitude, u will bear the consequences urself.. sigh...

it had been 2 months i didnt update my blog. i know it has nobody to read my blog. but for my own responsibility, i feel that i must update the blog. i treat it as my diary,although i didnt update it daily. but still, i want to write out my feelings. if not, i will be mad. whenever i want to share my feelings, i find no one to share with. it's embarrassed. i know.
it's ok. i think i will cope with this very well.

first sem in degree.. it's kinda busy. it's normal, i know. but still, i want to complain!! MMU system really not that efficient and effective. but i have to cope with this too. why? because i dare not to complain in formal way.. chicken..
however, if compared to USM, i think MMU system is good enough for us, students, to use it. just bear with it in this 4 years.

recently, i found that i had lost. lost in many aspects. ex-classmates are graduated from matriculation and going to enter local U. heard one of them is going to study overseas. same course with me. but duration is only 3 years. i started to worry, and suspect about my university and my course. is that the correct course i had take for my entire life? is that the correct university to study this course? i dont know. i'm confused. they will graduate earlier than me, 1 year. but salary still the same. that means, in other words, i'll waste up 1 year in MMU.
yes, i know. my "gia su" gene is come again.. it's lost of control again. sigh..

it's going to be very busy. i think i'm crazy, but the more crazy thing is, i pulled my friends together with me, to crazy together. sorry guys, if this sem u all feel reall tough to go through. i had no choice. sweetness comes after bitter. it always like that. this sem is the bitter time. hope we can taste the sweetness after that.

frankly, after u went to cyber, the thing that is unforgettable is when u can accompany me. do whatever thing i want to do. this is the only thing i miss about. whenever it is lunch or dinner time, i'm alone, if my friends didn't eat with me. take away the food and eat at home, is lonely. yes, lonely, nothing more than that. i finally know what's my sister's feeling. she hate eating at home. because of this, i always ask or even force my friends to eat with me.hope they can forgive me.

today home alone again. it's a better night for me to think over something.
i'm tired. tiring in maintaining the relationship between u and me. even friendship. i don't know what should i tell u, i dont know what should i do for u, i even dont know how to face u. yes, i'm hiding again. really dont feel like facing the problems. i dont know how to tell u what are the problems. maybe they had retained many months ago. just that we didnt realise the problems. u know, ur over suspicious and think too much had made me felt unbreathable. they made me so tiring.everybody also says that u are good. u treat me so gentle.
they might be correct. sometimes u are good, when ur mood is good. but when ur mood is bad, i totally dont know what should i do. i'm suffering.
i can guarantee that u dont know this thing.
this few weeks, what u had done is calling, keep on calling me. it's so torturing. i told u i'm busy. but u were "pek cek" there. what u want me to do?! i picked up ur phone, but u were talking rubbish and wasting my time.
it's enough. maybe we shouldn't be besties. we both dont deserve this relationship. what if we are just strangers.. so that we can have separate life.we dont disturb each other. so good..
agree? we just stepped back to strangers stage. so that i wont be so suffering, dont know how to face in front of u..

These few days are in a super relaxing mode.. because last few weeks were busy with the presentations.. business project.. damn stressful.. always in moody.. so i totally relaxed myself in these few days..

first day,we went to swim.. in ixora.. most of our rice tong members were arrived.. had a really enjoyable moment with them.. and refreshed.. i had been months never exercise.. body became fatter.. aikzz.. we "throw" our members one by one to the swimming pool.. cool~ it's very funny.. but we made one of our member cried.. sorry oh.. because she doesn't know how to swim.. and that was the first time she went to the pool.. no heart la us~ lol.. after that we planned to eat dinner together.. but i put aeroplane.. because last few days also felt sick.. then period is coming soon.. not feeling well.. my parents "da bao" for me.. so i thought it's better for me to eat at home.. in case i'm in a serious pain..

second day, i went to chinese orchestra event.. IT IS ABSOLUTELY COOL!!!! i love orchestra so much.. but dont have the chance to watch it.. now, when i watched it, i felt very enjoyed.. really really!!i wanna learn flute~ hope i have the effort and chance to learn it.. (praying..)




the last day, i went to sing k with my rice tong group members.. but blood rice didnt attend.. too bad.. we sing and sing and sing.. sing for 5 hours!!! gosh.. after that, initially was decided to watch a movie before going back home.. but then majority said wanna shopping.. so we went for shopping.. but me, chashao rice and rurou rice went to play games with aaron, cow rice and roger.. it's kinda fun there.. after that zhu gay rice said wanna play bowling.. and we didnt feel like going other places.. so accompanied them and sat at there.. waiting they all came back from crazy shopping..

i realised that.. i like the way when i'm be with u.. i fall in love with that kinda way when we are together.. sigh.. now only i realised.. it's totally too late.. if possible, i hope that i can never realise this feeling.. kept it in the deepest place in my heart.. dont try to think about it.. isnt it a best way for us? yeah, i guess it is..
sometimes, we have to be selfish.. so i understood ur feeling.. it is just a way that we wont suffer together in future.. but i really cannot bear with this suffering situation.. one more month.. i feel like crying out loudly.. sigh.. tell nobody about my feelings.. suffering..

me~ rurou rice~ chashao rice~

the rice tong~

we are Rice Tong~

u know why am i saying like that? these are the evidences!!! what the hell!
firstly, today i am supposed to see the supplier which is the sixth time i had been found him.. but ended up he was not there!! damn!!! so angry! if he has supplied for another group then just inform us la? dont let us waiting and keep going to the place to find him ma.. any feel of responsibility also dont have! hate!

secondly, me and jiamei went to the baba nasi lemak there to ask for catering.. but then the boss told us that he is busy.. wont do catering.. what the hell! ok, fine.. but the nasi campur is superb!!
too bad he cant supply us.. if not sure earn profits!

the last but not least, my purse had been stolen!!!! shit! @#%&#@
i knew that it is my fault.. i shouldnt leave my purse in my bag.. security department also advised us not to leave expensive belongings in the shelf.. i had a uncomfortable feeling today. it seems like something is going to happen. i thought it is car accident. mana tau is lost purse.. sienzz.. once i saw my bag, i know something had happened. ya, i am right. my purse is lost. jiamei didnt believe and help me to search again. she asked me why i didnt have any expression on my face. sigh.. what kinda expression should i have? cry out loud? it is in public la.. i should keep my image. laugh out loud? i guess people will think i'm crazy.. calling to my mom and my dad.. my mom was shock and panic.. then ask me to call my dad.. i called my dad, he is much more calm as compared to my mom.sigh...

dont know how am i going back home. the only thing i know is go to my sis's room.. once my sis had opened the door, i started to cry.. (sobbing there while telling my sis what had happened) my sis lent me a RM50 note..
thank god nothing important inside my purse.. my IC is time for me to change it. my license can renew. my membership cards!! gone.. whatever..
my money!!! i just withdraw my money out few days ago.. sigh.. hope the thief will not use my money in my ATM.. i pray sincerely to god..

hah! we had done our social work today!!! hurray!!!(i feel like dancing around..)

haha.. i'm sweeping the leaves..

before this.. we had quite worried about it because of the approval problem.. we straight went there this morning, without receiving the approval letter from that particular charity organisation.. cool~

tired..rest for awhile first..

i woke up vy early today.. sleepy nia!! but still have to wake up.. sienzz.. then just ate 3 slides of bread.. one group of us, 2 cars.. people included are siew chinn (our project leader), me (one of the driver), shuhan, jiamei, jiajia, shiehying, yongann(another driver) and also yongkang(photograpgher).

really vy happy today.. although i'm sweeping the leaves all the time.. shoulder muscle pain.. T_T

yo!yo!

then we have lunch at newton.. i ate a lot of food!!! i need energy!! lol.. after that we went for carrefour to buy something to the charity as a donation.. bought meehoon, rice, condensed milk, milo, biscuits, and also oyster sauce(what? i wondered why they want this thing..)..then we went back to the building again.. and interact with the children who are having tuition there..

taking photo with Ms Molly

i had having a lot of fun with all of u guys~~

jiamei, dont always bully yongkang la.. he will let u bully is because he is so good.. haha..